Is a story beginning again!!!

sari raat ek dard sa raha hai is seene me……
ek chahat……
jaise kuch kehna ho tumse……
magar tu mere sath nahi hai……
jab tu hoti hai ……
to ye chahat is dar se shant ho jati hai……
ki kahi ye adhuri na reh jaye……
mai samajh nahi pa raha hu……
ki ise shant karu ya badhne du……
is baat ka izhar karu ya rehne du……
kuch aur intezar karu ya keh du……
khud se poochhu to koi jawaab nahi……
khuda se poochhu hu to koi jawaab nahi……
kiska intezar hai mujhe……
kya dhundh raha hu……
kya galat hai kya sahi……
in sawaalon ka koi jawaab nahi……
tu meri zindagi me khwab ban ke ayi hai……
shayad mere saare sawaalo ka jawaab ban ke ayi hai……
magar ye bhi ek sachchai hai……
ki ab tuta to ye dil kabhi jud nahi paega……
ab tak samhala hai……bikhar jaega……
tu chali gai to……
ye banda jee nahi payega…
mar jaega.